Personal dilemma and an apology
Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2014 8:43 pm
First off, I wish to say that I'm sorry for being such a poor cabal-mate. For the longest time now I've been dealing with personal matters and real life, and actually wound up forgetting I even had a TSW account. Several months later and a friend is telling me about Tokyo and I remember that oh yeah, TSW was a thing. However, I came back on today and found myself slammed with the same problems that plagued me in the past, even moreso now than before, due to the time spent away:
1) Lack of direction
The main issue I had previously was the fact that, I was never sure what I was doing in TSW. I spent hours trying (and failing) to get into NM groups to get BB...for a build I wasn't even concretely sure about. I can whip up a half-decent set of abilities, but gear? The math for that is beyond me (TSW's formulas and calcuations are a bit much for someone like myself, for whom math is an antithesis.) So I was basically sitting on Bullion without any idea of what I was going to use it on. I knew basics (650 hit, 900 pen) but not the math of how to GET to those numbers.
2) Grouping
LFG channel is basically a one-way ticket for a ride going 250mph into depressionville (if you'll excuse me getting poetic). People want what feels like overgeared or already highly experienced individuals for runs to make them fast, but you need to be able to get groups to get the experience or the gear (the good ol' catch 22). This left me feeling rather down when I realized I was basically stuck running Polaris and Darkness War almost exclusively because I neither had the gear (what people wanted) or the experience (which I couldn't get) for any of the other NMs, besides maybe the first Hell dungeon (I forget the name, with the Tyrant Machine last boss), if I could get a group for that. I long to be able to actually do the NY Raid, but the fact my gear sits all too comfortably at 10-10.1 renders that impossible. Which leads me to the third issue.
3) Timing
I live in California, which is GMT -8. As one might expect, this presents the usual timezone issues. A large chunk of Nine Swords seems to be EU, which made trying to be present for events and regular gatherings difficult because I had to remember to do the -8 and often that placed some events in the early morning or afternoons for me, which during the week was difficult (I have volunteer work interspersed during the morning until around 2pm PST). So often I'd come online only to find a minimum of individuals around, unless it was Raid day, but that was obviously for the raid.
I'm not blaming anyone in Nine Swords, or even Nine Swords itself. The only person to blame here is myself. I still haven't even bought Tokyo yet due to a lack of funds (and the inability to decide if I should purchase the CE version of the issue or not, I'm not sure if it's worth it), which I'll hopefully be correcting soon, but I'm already well behind the curve compared to everyone else. In general I find myself in an odd, uncertain place, and I don't wish to be dead weight to a group that was as nice as yourselves. I'm just not sure what I should do with myself.
1) Lack of direction
The main issue I had previously was the fact that, I was never sure what I was doing in TSW. I spent hours trying (and failing) to get into NM groups to get BB...for a build I wasn't even concretely sure about. I can whip up a half-decent set of abilities, but gear? The math for that is beyond me (TSW's formulas and calcuations are a bit much for someone like myself, for whom math is an antithesis.) So I was basically sitting on Bullion without any idea of what I was going to use it on. I knew basics (650 hit, 900 pen) but not the math of how to GET to those numbers.
2) Grouping
LFG channel is basically a one-way ticket for a ride going 250mph into depressionville (if you'll excuse me getting poetic). People want what feels like overgeared or already highly experienced individuals for runs to make them fast, but you need to be able to get groups to get the experience or the gear (the good ol' catch 22). This left me feeling rather down when I realized I was basically stuck running Polaris and Darkness War almost exclusively because I neither had the gear (what people wanted) or the experience (which I couldn't get) for any of the other NMs, besides maybe the first Hell dungeon (I forget the name, with the Tyrant Machine last boss), if I could get a group for that. I long to be able to actually do the NY Raid, but the fact my gear sits all too comfortably at 10-10.1 renders that impossible. Which leads me to the third issue.
3) Timing
I live in California, which is GMT -8. As one might expect, this presents the usual timezone issues. A large chunk of Nine Swords seems to be EU, which made trying to be present for events and regular gatherings difficult because I had to remember to do the -8 and often that placed some events in the early morning or afternoons for me, which during the week was difficult (I have volunteer work interspersed during the morning until around 2pm PST). So often I'd come online only to find a minimum of individuals around, unless it was Raid day, but that was obviously for the raid.
I'm not blaming anyone in Nine Swords, or even Nine Swords itself. The only person to blame here is myself. I still haven't even bought Tokyo yet due to a lack of funds (and the inability to decide if I should purchase the CE version of the issue or not, I'm not sure if it's worth it), which I'll hopefully be correcting soon, but I'm already well behind the curve compared to everyone else. In general I find myself in an odd, uncertain place, and I don't wish to be dead weight to a group that was as nice as yourselves. I'm just not sure what I should do with myself.