The honeymoon is over.
Posted: Tue May 14, 2013 10:23 am
When did that electric feeling leave me.. and where did it go?
You know the feeling I am talkin' about. That higher feeling of elation when you defeat the threat, send it absolutely and unquestionably off the planet and save the survivor. The excitement, the thrill ..
I know that feeling left me - it is no longer electric. The bees may be buzzing, but I am not. I don't mean to imply that the Anima stopped flowing through my being - that isn't it at all. It just isn't flowing alone any more.
The Anima gained company. It gained company in my veins, in my thinking - it is now united with a sense of duty. It grounded me, made the path forwards gain a firmer footing that I know I want to keep walking.
I have a sense of belonging that is no longer that honeymoon feeling of new and unexplored territories. Or that day between Christmas and New Year where the new present stopped being so much fun.. and you instead wish that Santa had just bought you the socks you really had wanted.
I know what to expect and I know what my duty is.
Kingsmouth continues to fight its fight.
I'm here to fight with it; I am here for the long haul with my blade in my hand.
You know the feeling I am talkin' about. That higher feeling of elation when you defeat the threat, send it absolutely and unquestionably off the planet and save the survivor. The excitement, the thrill ..
I know that feeling left me - it is no longer electric. The bees may be buzzing, but I am not. I don't mean to imply that the Anima stopped flowing through my being - that isn't it at all. It just isn't flowing alone any more.
The Anima gained company. It gained company in my veins, in my thinking - it is now united with a sense of duty. It grounded me, made the path forwards gain a firmer footing that I know I want to keep walking.
I have a sense of belonging that is no longer that honeymoon feeling of new and unexplored territories. Or that day between Christmas and New Year where the new present stopped being so much fun.. and you instead wish that Santa had just bought you the socks you really had wanted.
I know what to expect and I know what my duty is.
Kingsmouth continues to fight its fight.
I'm here to fight with it; I am here for the long haul with my blade in my hand.